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Close your eyes close your eyes close your eyes. Dont speak she doesnt talk. I cant stop shaking and its been a week. A decision was made but I cant tell Jeffrey. These things happen. Why didnt I close my eyes fast enough. The doctor was different again. I think from Israel. He had kind eyes but didnt speak directly to me. This was different. ask A shot and those rod like things had a hook and so much pain. Ghislaine said to push all the pain away. I don't understan N ie 0. Blood and water all over the bed and she was right. \ (it s Like a feeling when your tummy hurts and yor (04 1 1puslc She said to close my eyes and put her ha y eeit I didnt close them because of these tiny cries. I am so lost. I saw between her fingers 's tiny hea dy in the doctors hands. It reached its tiny arm up and had a tiny foot. I closed my eyes and no more.. 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If they missed out on walking about like people It wasn't- for any lack onnother-love. 0 I cannot understand what happened to diem! They are proper in shape and number and ev-gvt. 0 They sit so nicely in the pickling fluid! They smile and smile and smile and N,4 1'".. CO And still the lungs won't fili and th ( :</ w n'tzt., They are not pigs, they are n Though they have a piggy It would be better _ft whatIthey were} But ttsy_Tr_LWad, a ..._...Th with distraction, And they stupa . A. k of her. It ?, ci k h5a 'Y\ h G i ,1z . r.‘.O .se\''' ..../ ‘....) iS e d 11 4 ‘dri ,tse‘ii<RE 5. 2 0 i ana i.1. 1 IA .SA.11 SQ,autklikkgellledtt 1-43buic e born 1 I S. 91. had V\ k- C vie,e5h NANl ise-i- rneple:\ rn iak•olisnolc". he 15e° hd dh sa Wl (A(141 (110 e, EFTA02731366 He was right. A couple of months and two pink lines with a hold on being with others until after it was positive. I want to die. Why didnt she protect me? As long as I am wearing what you want. There is no respect for me as a human. I am nothing but your property and incubator! . You only trust me when I am under your complete CONT I N o, I t s n Nal I will never trust another man EVER! I am the only one who provides and sacrifice TA // I give and give out of terror and you &1 ic 4/ ) off m ✓ a You need me to continue...Keep EFTA02731367 01 "I. A promise to respect your sense of style, most of the time. P. • • • :" fl U a '1", . i 5h l Ov,/n -r R r"AaVg 1 PI : , ,nbt•cf l'? 01v? 0 e 8 'p 0\ rt. (., e. . . ,.j , .. , A promise one clay you'll ....;40pot.. 4n . kri this trusting.? \oi ;'; t-- 0 o i , „ , <,(, ,k • ; - . c 1- C \ .1 l F. • 0 . ,. ( <0" A promisKs, Gt vide for you, no matter what. 1S. 1 ? 0 V e (Ada IN i.: c 5 V k -C . (.7 ! I fit 11 0 1 14„,....q IY740 (*vck)n, c i le E el 'di N 0, 1-e.ip ..... It ktok- Ce i'(‘Y\ \Iuctel- 0 01 i• 'kJ\ L .0 i e. k.t04r0u d U c1( <C 1 EFTA02731368 [clipping: Unlike drugs, a child's body can be sold over and over] This is not surprising but there is no such thing as a child prostitute! They are children and cannot consent! They are missing the biggest in my own backyard and so many more! Like Maralago and where I see Mr. Joe and Mrs. Anne. EFTA02731369  our finance department - deals with all the paperwork. I Unfortunately thestiliance I department is also I Who Knew? cr I a I life in a P nixes .ike drugs. a woman's body can he sold over and over I I 0 r-Sq' "The slaves in ic-/ Lake Placid wer I invisible.... Pe were playa I at the rde, ent communitrind right behind them was a slave camp." I I t?ne U.S. shelter has rescued 10.000 chik pl, 4.1%jltr Sociologist Lois Lee. right. has spent 24 years working with children from II to 17 years old who've been trafficked by pimps. One young resident. left. at her Children of the Night shelter in southern California was forced to work as a prostitute in Oregon. Washington. Idaho. and Nevada before escaping her captor. "The sexual exploitation of American children cuts across every economic. ethnic. and social line.- Lee says. "This is not just a Third World problem." I EFTA02731370 Please release me from this torture and hell! \ZS../<</ C0 EFTA02731371 • The headline below is not a metaphor. This story is about 1 slaves. Not people living like slaves, working hard for lousy pay..Not people 200 years ago. Ifg about 27 million people worldwide who are bought and sold, held captive, brutalized, exploited for profit. it's about 2 NATION," r 1111 n it _0O1 release (ri-les') v. -leased, -leas•ing. 1. to set free from confinement, restraint, or involuntary servi- tude. 2. To set free. 3. To allow the performance, sale, publication, or circulation of. 4. To relinquish. —n. 1. The act of liberating, releasing. 2. A device for lock- ing or releasing a mechanism. 1< Lat. relaxare. to relax.] —re•leas'a•ble adj. —re4eas'er n. EFTA02731372 Controlled ALL by Jeffrey! All the time! Get awayfrom it all. And go to New Mexico? What in the hell? This makes no sense. What about school? Behind the scenes. He is now controlling EVERYTHING when it used to be Ghislaine who so cts like she hates me. Secrets of.. all of them. I am tired of keeping this secret. I know people are wondering but I can't tell! c& N1 Q I am exhausted! 4 / Broken promises...I don't understate g me on some days like Im the enemy but then we lay in bed together and o be, warm. He makes her feel my to and its s confusing. Superior gene pool ?!? Wh e? es no sense. Why my hair color and eye color? That feels very Nazi like V o3 4 /in. 'nk[ing] about these stupid insane theories he has I guess in his mind it makes sense. The piano and omments are made to convince me this is right and will create perfect offspring het I dont thinkirks that way and its making me hate playing altogether. Piano or viola. I am starting to resent them both. I miss the person I was before I was made into what feels as a human incubator. EFTA02731373  SPECIAL NUTRITION superior Gene Pool Ea= from it all A (-* BEHIND THE SCENES = Secrets of ci <R \-\ 4 CO = o mi ni 1110 11till EFTA02731374 My friend realized much of everything and came to get me out of Marys. She made me leave all things of value on the bed. She put all my belongings in trash bags. I have maybe avoided NM. I have been staying with friends but never more than two or three nights because my mo er is on the war path. have been so great but saw me changin Ttllknows about the baby. He said he promises to help me and we will figure out what Nee t. s ( 0 St/ 4/ <<\ C) n....4q- t.,... /S ,x <ig- EFTA02731375  1 'I couldn't stay under the same roof your life les a whole new life. And here to make things a little easier is Ih abl( GcCon‘a. f A roomy, versatile will minivan with front -wheel drive and hefty V6 power. I on tin 4at it's the best ally a parent can have. So prepare yours ady or bill never be the same. v'n vr (In cm 4- (O etiq at rft ott nnoCicie CIAO+ tirs.ylmcirnt ..!+' g 0 vlenhbci•hpi Imbini 180 vLs cCio tob rs ..1131yos a(Ao eS e uat pyS e o e fl .04• beS ° ci i‘tred b.\ ee fne Sato ‘ae4.0106. I'l+Nnvi ins vnv oe hnw ash\ltf\“ t cke• iokea ()-V p\- c'e.O4Se o.S cArni-e ehe.x\3tlac,ve,1 rasrt hvir oe p e nigh Kosbui- ecotegcle.m S S 'I 19ING%cinwo,o-t-Vibkol-IS 0190 e ns° 9v e,o e oi q uwa Gt nr,pot4Sro -4 l-oo. EFTA02731376 EFTA02731377 I 1 EFTA02731378 My heart belonged to her. She was so very beautiful. She was perfect. I cant bring myself to write what happened. I am beyond broken. I only got 10 to 15 minutes to hold and feed her before they took her. She is mine! I want her back!!! Distraught! EFTA02731379 a Shy a isgone 3 and she 216 Child Your clear eye is the one absolutely beautiful thing. won't be I want to fill it with coioritid ducks; Tie zoo of the new coming Whose names you meditate — April snowdrop, Indian pipe, back Little Stalk without wrinkle, Pool in which images Should be grand and classical Not this troublouiste Wringir_aof hlki",.. • darto O Ceiling wi u • 28Jantiarylp63 */ ""k VV < (/ U heart belonged to her a Se N {O y rsiSe. ``` f'se‘'.1040‘ tc, i 00 1 5 1 -1 begxtiful 1•41ehka?Ila•Cl Virl (0‘pe.e‘ cc‘ t 'OAC\t.oe oirA fy.fi. ckoecie 118 olqA005 \\J e ociRteheeoe 1110 I t IfinnIS 0 „ to hC. Iii ltAIN. 1 ate ot CS es •\ vJahrQK osroh, *1 -to EFTA02731380 HELP MD PLEASE CANT ANYONE FIND ME, [clipping with date, National Geographic, September 2003] Barely (survived /ill those) procedures. My heart is GONE. EFTA02731381 HER PASS ION FAREWELL TO A PRINCESS, AND TO AN ANGEL PROFIT left behind EFTA02731382 April 22nd I had no choice. I wasnt ready and she wasnt ready. My mother had found me and it was urgent. After so many bonding moments with Jeffrey, Ghislaine, their baby inside me with me in the middle she wouldnt even look at me. We said nothing to one another and I was so confused. When we arrived at Palm Beach I was taken to a house close to Jeffreys I think ean Blvd or St. But it was close and I was ALONE except for a new drivetr Not . Juaro An elderly French lady whose pictures on the wall diolkINsi hetAkei She had a thick accent and was kind. Said she had been born to deliver babies and (ha(e een eso before I was born. Similar as the last one with shot and but tt much blood with so much water and unbearable pain. Ni She put her hands inside of me and see34/1 .... ‘ ied. I didnt understand. Something about the b by facing wrong way and putting ... (next page) EFTA02731383 I love you so much joy 0 EFTA02731384 pressure on a placenta? Things would have to be different. She said I had to be brave and strong and listen to her directions so she could help safely get the baby out. I was TERRIFIED seeing so much blood on the bed and floor and started to panic. She had me flip over to my hands and knees and had me push and push and it was so emakiating. I could feel everything as she tried to guide the baby out but I was so tired. iithe I felt I was dying but suddenly she had caught a beautiful babyclvvho mad than a whimper but beautiful cries. She let me hold her and washed her and brought herk are a She smelled so good and showed me how to fe 41/ But only after maybe 15 minutes Mr. M came td as hysterical! Cl and begging for more time. He said those horrible girls were in the car ut I wouldnt let her go. The old woman promised me she would e n fe and I had to let go. 4 pounds 10 ounces 18. 5 inches long with beautiful long fingers. I am dead inside. Life has no meanin I dont want gt c law EFTA02731385 EFTA02731386 S Edge 51e i The tcomae is perfected. Her dead Body wears the smile of accomplishment, The illusion of a Greek necessity Flows in the scrolls of her toga, Her bare Feet seem to be saying: We have come so far, it is over. Each dead child coiled, a white serpent, One at each little n+sv a Pitcher of milk, now empty. <<" 1Sre Nei a She has folded Them back into her bo •S` A Is a Of a rosc close when Stiffens and ors bleed rt..% IssZi From the s deep throats of the night flower. a The moon has nothi ySad about, Staring from her ne. a Shc is used tot i sort of thing. Her blacks crackle and drag. February 1963 a a a a • S S EFTA02731387 Jean Luc Brunel is a disgusting pig with bad breath and I am almost positive does these disgusting things because he is struggling with maybe being gay! 6 weeks wasnt even given before being sent back. Punishment for trying to run. Why can no one help me. Ghislaine is gone. I am so lost and my heart is broken. Is this my...destiny. O\\\' EFTA02731388  WHEN YOURE LEARNING ABM' LIF E, THE WORLD IS YOUR CLASSROOM. WE LIVE WHERE YOU LIVE:" • ■ PR0TECTIL , , family firm ■ ■ MODEL SEARCH a a a a a a a a a a a ■ EFTA02731389 I need them, everyone...all to see. I still always dream to build a better world. She wentfirm being a beautiful young girl to a sad broken child... but maybe a hope that after it all, I still truly had it within herself. One day I aspire to be like this... she came in like a lamb and went out like a lioness. EFTA02731390  all to see. 1 not a political animal, but I think the biggest disease this world suffers from in this day and age is the disease of peop ..... 1Viing unloved.' en I go to sleep at night I know I done my hesi dream to d a better world :••)1k fp.mi .k Ill v(atiau SHE CAME IN LIKE A LAMB AND WENT OUT LIKE frilly had it A LIONESS within hcP,elf. EFTA02731391 EFTA02731392